Choices- one of our greatest gifts, and one of our greatest burdens.  Beginning with Eve in the Garden, and continuing through out time, we are faced with choice.  Sometimes they are easy, our choices; most times not so much.

If we are lucky, we have time to weigh outcomes, benefits and consequences.  Many times we don’t have that luxury, and must follow our instincts.  Sometimes both choices are bad; sometimes both choices are good; sometimes there are many choices and sometimes there seems like none.  And even if you choose nothing, you have made that choice.

Sometimes consequences are so removed from the choice, we can’t  fathom them.  That is often the case with addiction.  In the beginning, the rewards seem so great.  Now, at the other end, we live those consequences.  And the consequence is loss.  We have lost our ability to choose.  Addiction has now chosen us.

We can’t undo this choice, and if we do nothing, then we have chosen nothing.

‘I saw myself sitting in the crotch of the fig-tree, starving to death, just because I couldn’t make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest.’ -Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

But we can choose a new path from within this consequence of choice.  We can choose recovery.  We can choose life.  And if you find yourself sitting in that fig tree, know this.  You only forsake the rest of the figs if you choose none.

As always, my hopes are for your hopes and dreams…..T